Anxiety & All of its Glory: How I Battle My Anxiety on a Daily Basis

If you can’t tell, the first part of the title is total sarcasm. There is nothing glorified about anxiety, although I thought some humor would all do us some good. I’ve always been an “anxious” person. I didn’t really feel like it was a big problem in my life because it wasn’t overbearing in any way. That is, until about a year ago when I noticed some changes. I guess I felt like I didn’t know enough to write about it. I’ve yet to even tell some people in my life about it. I guess I feel that if I told people then it becomes real and something I have to deal with properly. Since I knew I didn’t have much information about how anxiety works I told myself I was overly stressed by changes in my life and that there are other people suffering way more. As time went on, it only got worse. So, I did some research, spoke to some people in my life about it, and even went to see a therapist.
I realized I had been under stress like most people. I was dealing until I started to get stomach issues (which is a symptom of anxiety–it could be in the form of constipation, diarrhea, or upset stomach). Soon after my mental health took a nosedive. I started to constantly overthink and second guess myself more than usual. Whenever it was night or when I was alone I began to feel powerless, this sudden fear- like something bad was going to happen for no reason. I constantly needed Eric to reassure me of any small problem or negative thought I had. I felt like I was living a different life– like I was walking on eggshells. I thought that was all that was bothering me until I started to have trouble falling asleep. During that time I would overthink and feel like there was a giant elephant on my chest. I would feel like I couldn’t breathe and yet my heart felt like it was racing. In some moments I felt like I was trembling and just felt this raw overbearing fear that I couldn’t shake. I kept Eric up on many nights until we figured out that background noise helps distract me, allowing me to fall asleep.
So, I went to see a therapist. This experience was not necessarily a good one. I had never been to see a therapist before so I wasn’t quite sure what to expect, and yet I found myself surprised. I wouldn’t say she didn’t help because she did teach me 1 useful thing I still use. She taught me how to control my breathing with this simple technique– Breathe in for 3 seconds, hold for 3 seconds and breath out for 3 seconds–repeat as often as you need.
This went on for about five months. I was tired, gained some weight and I just felt like I didn’t have much of a direction. Eric and I started to make small changes to help us both. We switched to organic food, I started to cook more, and we went on more walks with my dog Rocky. I found what my triggers were and I found ways to avoid them the best I could. I started to shift my focus from my fears to my goals. I started to read more and write again. I started to find the joy in everyday life. The more I started to get on a routine the better I began to feel. This is not something that just went away because it hasn’t. I’m learning to accept it and find ways to live my life healthier and more balanced.
I was never one to think that I would experience anxiety. I saw myself as strong and decisive. Through all this I began to see myself as weak and incapable–the more I began to read and get on a routine I found that was not the case about me. That I will come out stronger from this.
This is not something I am proud of but I used to think that people with anxiety or depression were not as strong to handle their problems. My experience has taught me otherwise.
From my experiences I thought something was wrong with me. I want to share with you that there is nothing wrong with you. You are strong, capable, loving, and deserving of good things. I know it might be hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel but it’s there even if you can’t see it just yet. No two people are the same therefore anxiety looks different for each person. Here I am going to share what helped me get stronger and take control of my body and mind again.
I first started with healthier eating habits. I cut out all fast food from my life. I also cut out diary, red meat, and switched to organic foods. I also got on a routine to take vitamins and minerals to give my immune system a boost (when you experience anxiety constantly, your immune system weakens). Eating healthier also helps me determine if I am having anxiety symptoms or if I am actually sick.
Breathing exercises and positive affirmations. The moment I begin to feel fear I do my exercises and begin to ask myself why I am feeling this way? Once I answer the question I tell myself something positive and true to counteract it, which is helpful in determining my triggers so that I can either stay clear of them or find a way to prevent it from controlling me.
Good distractions! I either put on a funny show on the background or play upbeat music. I even play with my dog Rocky until my fear is gone. At night when I feel fear coming on I just put on nature noises or shows to keep my mind preoccupied. I remember watching a video of this boxer once (totally forgot his name) and he said the way he works through any of his negative mental health is by keeping busy. He will fill his days will mental and physical proactive activities and use all the energy for good instead of bad. At the end of the day he is too tired to think about any worries or go to any negative places. So, I took that advice and started to shift my focus from my fears to my goals. I focused in on action and before I knew it, most nights I am so tired that I don’t even remember falling asleep.
Movement! Going on walks with Rocky, playing, cleaning and organizing are all things that help keep my body healthy and happy. The more I work my body, the more tired I find myself at the end of the day. So, working out or taking a day to clean helps in keeping my worries at bay.
Lastly, I don’t keep worries to myself. I make sure to share them with those I trust. Even if my friends have nothing to say, it’s important for me to let it out instead of me overthinking on it. It’s a way of me letting it go and having it become normal. I share what I experienced and work on what we can do better. This is not about me ridding myself of my anxiety but to work through it and find the balance that works for me. Having my loved one’s feedback and support is important. The only way I can get that is through communicating what I feel.

I truly hope you gain something from this post and my experience. If you have any questions you can message me or reach me through instagram.
Have a lovely day!
Until next time,

How to Encourage Change in Your Life

Due to some unchecked stress and anxiety, I had some stomach problems going on recently, and so I missed last week’s post. I was in bed resting for quite a bit of time.
In a weird coincidence, the topic for today correlates to what I went through for the past week.
I kept pushing down many of my negative emotions at the same time my life was on a fast streak. I didn’t give myself the time to relax and work through all of the emotions I was carrying. You are probably thinking about how much of a hypocrite I am because I am always writing about how we should be creating a more healthy lifestyle. I figured out when we lose focus on what we want or need, we begin to make different choices that don’t necessarily correlate to the direction we need to go in.
There is always a point where we become tired of our current situation and begin to ask ourselves several questions. Like, ‘why is this happening to me’ or ‘what can I do to get out of this and move on?’ So many of us wait to change something in our life until we feel trapped and uncomfortable. What we should do is make changes when we feel strong and good about ourselves. This is how we can take better control of our lives and stay clear-minded.
As I get back into writing again, you will start to see different themed posts about travels and fashion correlating with living a more positive and confident lifestyle. My entire thought process has been about how I can show you how to put forth action. People always say, ‘you just start’, but I think that is easier said than done. After some time, I figured out we simply get in our own way–like I continue to do. Taking action is not just about taking one giant step; it is about making small changes everyday that eventually lead to something bigger. Encouraging change in your life is about breaking free from yourself.
Here I have listed some changes we can make in our lifestyle that can encourage us to start taking charge.

TIP 1, for our emotional health: Tell yourself 3 positive affirmations a day. Once in the morning, afternoon and before bed.
TIP 2, for our mental health: Read at least one chapter of a book a day. One that challenges you and helps you break free from any mental limitations.
TIP 3, for our physical health: If you are a beginner, do something active for at least 15 minutes. Drink more water and fruit rather than soda and chips. (These are first starter tips, if you already live an active lifestyle and eat healthy, what you could do is start a different type of workout or routine and stop going out to eat as much and cook more often. A tip I go by when it comes to dessert is, I only buy dessert when I go out for a fun event and I only make sure to bring home one dessert item to limit my intake.)

All of these tips are focused on us creating changes we want to see in our lives. We shouldn’t just wait for changes to happen– we are able to make them happen for ourselves.

You are in control of how you view yourself, so let it be beautiful.
Love, Evelyn

Edited by Samantha McDonald